Synagogue Sermon
The Way of Honor (1961)
Yom Kippur is one of the strangest, most fascinating days of the Jewish calendar. It is a great paradox, composed of two contradictory moods. On the one hand it is Yom Tzom – a fast day, solemn and somber. On the other hand, it is Yom Tov – a festival, happy and joyous. On the one hand, it is the great and awful Yom Ha-din, in which judgment is handed down on individuals, on nations, and the entire world, a day symbolized by the kittel, reminiscent of the shroud which marks the inevitable end of arrogant, mortal man. On the other hand, it is a day when we affirm life, proclaiming zakhrenu le’hayyim – “remember us unto life,” when we recite the blessing she’hecheyanu ve’kiymanu ve’higiyanu la-zeman ha-zeh – a blessing reserved for only the happiest occasions. It is Yom Kippurim, when we ask forgiveness for our overwhelming, crushing guilt; and, as some commentaries put it, Yom ke-Purim – a day as joyous and heartwarming as Purim!All through this day, which we now commence, you will find this clash of opposing moods, of conflicting themes. After our confession, we recite two passages that reflect this paradox. First, we shall say Elokai, ad she’lo notzarti eini kedai – “Oh my G-d, before I was born I was unworthy; now that I am born, it is as if I were yet unborn.” We emphasize the worthlessness of man’s life, the vanity of his foolish illusions. Yet right afterwards we begin another prayer, the first word of which is also Elokai – “Oh my G-d.” We say Elokai, netzor leshoni me-ra…petach libi be’toratekha v’acharei mitzvotekha tirdof nafshi. Oh my G-d, teach me to be big enough to be silent when I am smeared by small men, when petty people aim their shafts at me. Give me a sterling character. Open my heart to the glories of Thy Torah, and let me behold the majesty of Thy Mitzvot so that I might pursue them. What a difference! In one prayer we come to Elokai because we are nothing, in the other because we can become something. In one – because we are worthless, in the …